MANDIRI? Edisi Saringan Nyamuk

Been served for 19 years, now's my time to do everything all alone.

Been long time, huh? Its my first post after last May. This time I tell what Ive been through for 4 days living in dorm. Its not really a dormitory I guess, its indekost ----dari bahasa Belanda katanya. Bahasa gaulnya di sini ngekos beda sama dorm (asrama). Gila deh emang gila, capek banget semuanya serba sendiri. Makan sendiri, nyuci piring sendiri, masak sendiri. Biasa sih kaya gitu di rumah, karena emang ditakdirkan punya orang tua sibuk dari dulu, jadi, dari yang namanya masak; makan; nyuci piring..........gue kerjain sendiri.

Kali ini beda, di sini perlengkapan seadanya, baru pindahan belum semua barang ada. Banyak yang belum di kirim. Banyak yang belum dibeli. Engga punya kendaraan buat mondar - mandir ke sana kemari. Apalagi di kota orang, gak tau jalan, naik angkot nyambung - nyambung. Celaka duabelas.

Tapi Alhamdulillah di sini ada office girl, office boy, dan satpam yang baik baik. Gue jadi betah. Man..... you dont know how hard it is kalau mereka dimintain tolong susah. Kaya contohnya tadi pagi, karena di kamar gue engga ada AC, kipas belum beli, yaaaaaaaa mengandalkan angin sepoi sepoi dari luar deh. Masalah utamanya adalah nyamuk dan lalar dari luar kalau buka jendela jadi butuh yang namanya saringan nyamuk. Man, gue gak tau toko bangunan dimana. Berbekal rasa pede, abis nganter laundry-an gue tanya sama office girl yang bernama mbak Shanti, "mbak bisa minta tolong beliin saringan nyamuk buat jendela kamar, engga?" Sejujurnya gue agak engga enak, tapi kontan doi jawab dengan aksen jawa medok khas Jawa Timur, "Oh ya boleh toh, mbak. Ini biar mas-nya yang beliin di toko bangunan." Singkat cerita office boy nya yang ada di situ langsung jalan setelah gue kasih uangnya untuk beli saringan nyamuk dan cable roll. Dan pas dia sampe dia langsung masangin itu saringan nyamuk ke jendela kamar, surprisingly, its my favorite color, GREEN! 

Kalau gak ada dia gue nyamukan seharian.Terimakasih mas. Tenang tenang saudara sekalian, gue kasih tip lah doi-nya karena udah masangin benda hijau itu dengan rapih dan bertanggung jawab. Makasih sekali deh, sekarang saya bisa tersenyum melihat pemandangan keluar dan menikmati udara bersih hahaha.

Before You Regret

I honestly dont know what Im gonna write down here. But here are some advice, I might wanna let you know.

I recently regret something I did couple days ago. Its sort of elusive and irrational. I kinda dated someone from my past. But honestly we never went out for a date. Call it we were in a relationship, weird relationship. He never asked me out, he texted me rarely ---actually we had 3 days not contacting each other, he was stuck with one game called Modoomarbles ---said him it was like an addictive monopoly game. Well, if you ask me why did I break up with him, all of the above are the answers. Plus one, I still cant get over someone ---well if you ask me again who was it, its on my previous post.

So, why do I regret? No, I dont regret because I broke up with him. I regret the time I wasted with the wrong person even only for 10 days. TEN DAYS? Ya. Sort of a very short time. I was a little bit carried out with his jokes and personality, hes such a funny guy who has great jokes that can shake my tummy. He has such a good taste of humor tho, for a phlegmatic like me for a loner like me.

SO, the point is: THINK WISELY, CHOOSE WISELY, DECIDE WISELY. 

BECAUSE: This time I realise I have made someone hurt.
I really am sorry, next time I'll think twice before having a relationship.

the end.

Broken-hearted Edition

I know I've been shared about my family-----I love them most and my school-life. But in this very moment I share you one favorite love story of mine.

Well, if you right there reading my blog. This is implying as me still thinking of you......

Yes, it has been you.

You remember the first time we met, dont you? I know you always will. The first time you took me to your favorite place then it became ours and still do, the first time you drove me laughing hard, the first time you convinced me that I am beautiful, the first time you took my hand from covering my mouth when I was laughing then you said, "your smile is the nicest, no need to cover it." Or when the first time you drove me to unknown place in Jakarta, way too inland, I didnt even know that place, then you showed me how I should be grateful for my life. The first time you told me that you love me at Taman Situlembang, the happiest day of 2012. The first time I realized how well you could appreciate girl even in very worst part of her. The first time we took a long stroll all day talking about random thing and laughing for random reason. The first time you wrote me a very romantic love letter. The first time you span me around then made my feet left off the ground by toting me on your back. The first time we sang crazily in car. The first time we exchanged cd mix, and unexpectedly we got 4 same favorite songs in it. The first time you played guitar and sang 'I wont give up by Jason Mraz' for me. The first time we created 'Alexa and Oriega' nickname. The first time you pinched my cheek, it was like you pulled it up and til I let my head following your hand and one of our friend got us pictured. The first time you said you willed to stop smoking for me, and you do, they say youve stopped smoking entirely. All of those the above, every moment with you, I risk my every drop of tears to write it down here.

And yes, I am drowning in tears now.......

Youre such a pain killer. No...... You were a pain healer, you made me realizing how hurtful story about 3 and half years failed relationship of mine with someone else back in the past was nothing to regret. I felt clement to breathe with you.

I pretend not to know the song you sang for me. Every song. The most hurtful one? I tell you, I wont Give Up - Jason Mraz is now trending and my friend listened to it and shared it on Path. They play it almost every time in radio and I have to listen on the way home from school. Whilst ironically I have it in my iPod. And I said to my friends that Luke the Janoskians introduced the song to me. I honestly cry secretly every time I listen to it.

I tried to open my heart to another guy. But I cant. They were not as good as you................
I know my worst mistake is I still keep comparing them to you. Once again, They were not as good as you. I declare my self as a selfish-bastard. I want you only.
How I couldnt sing or talk freely with another guy. I couldnt sing crazily in car with them. I couldnt enjoy my time together with another guy. I felt so lonely in their company. Again, youre still the best. Even for our backstreet relationship.

How my tears suddenly melted when I read your formspring, I honestly curved a very deep smile in my face finding out that I'm still your most favorite girl when anonymous asked, "who's your favorite girl?" I CANT BELIEVE IT.

How my eyes burning red yesterday to re-open your last letter. I am now trying to type every word in it up. I guess here they are......
"Next day, I may not drive you anywhere again. I'll drive my own self, and I'll never find someone to replace your seat, cause its forever yours. I'll never listen to our songs again, cause they only belong to us. I'll never hug a girl like I hugged you, cause no one will ever fit in my arms. I'll never say 'I love you' like i said to you, cause I'll never have the same feeling like I do to you."

Its been a year since we broke up. You know, oriega? Alexa cant get over you still, and they say neither do you, and yes it even makes harder to get over you. God is only our different one. "Kamu selalu mendoakanku dalam genggamanmu, sementara aku mendoakanmu dalam sujudku." If we just had no difference about this, I was certainly sure we would be forever. Now, I barely cant breath. I bear all the pain just to re-memorize and celebrate our failed anniversary. Whilst, you obviously know, youre the deepest and sweetest wound ever exists in me. I still love you though. Hopefully, leaving Jakarta means leaving our memories too. Cause I've suffered such a deep wound in my whole body this whole time. Good bye there:')

I love you, always have and always will......

Who did invent Geography?

Well, I shouldnt have been doing this. I have exams tomorrow. Screw them then....... I dont know if my mom seeing me blogging instead of studying for tomorrow. Mungkin doi bakal pasang muka kayak kobokan pecel. Kebayanglah ya asemnya kaya apaan......

At least I dont pick up my nose while writing this blog, just like I did in the previous post.

I actually have an idiot question. Who did invent Geography? This guy had such a great sense of humor. Dont you wanna laugh while counting the air pressure, wind speed, humidity, tremor? Or identifying kind of rocks existing in our planet? Or understanding the gases forming some planets in the solar system? Yes, I have great sense of humor. I wanna laugh and straightly do the table flipping!

Anybody please do me a favor to answer those silly questions above. Itu semua engga masuk akal buat anak sosial kayak gue. Im in social class program. All of the above thingies are not relevant with my study. Underline&bold it: ARE NOT RELEVANT.  Kenapa? Ya lo pikir aja sendiri. Sosial. Ceritanya kita disuruh belajar gejala sosial , hitung kemajuan perekonomian, bikin siklus akuntansi, belajar gejolak sosial. Ya sosial sehari hari deh elah. Udah sih, geografi kasih anak - anak ansos IPA aja. Suruh anak IPA aja belajar gejala alam. Toh, pada akhirnya 2 tahun belajar Geografi anak IPS gak boleh milih jurusan Geografi dan Teknik Geologi. "Those are Nature Science's major, they understand nature better than the social" yaduuuu.... ngapain repot repot belajar beginian sampe botak tumbuh lagi. I personally criticize Indonesia's Education Systems. Yaudah, gih dah ambil. Kita mah minum aer tinggal minum aer, engga mesti bangat dah segala belajar teknik teknik inflitrasi segala.

According to Erasthotenes, Geography means Geo : Bumi and "Graphien : Tulisan/Lukisan. Then the most irritating one is the Preston guy saying "Geography is the mother of all science." Nah see? You shouldve given it to the nature Science class program not Social. What for? Balancing? Oh my gosh, I actually almost get balded because of arranging and filling the accountancy cycles. To understand it even harder. Dear governor, what do you want? You actually are giving us more unsolvable pressure. The point is, ngapain sih? Beginian aja masuk ke Ujian Nasional. Please deh. Makan tai berak batu. Kebayang deh itu muka ngeden sejelek apa...............

"When the scientists are ripping a frog's abdomen, the economists are busy ripping the world's finance." Ngerti ora? Disaat ilmuwan ngebelek perut kodok, ekonom lagi sibuk ngebelek keuangan dunia ---ngerti sih ini bahasa inggrisnya maksain abis. See? Another reason to throw this shit to the Nature Science class. Terus?Yaudah. Engga ngerti lagi besok harus gimana. Semalem tst (baca: tutorial service time) di GO (baca: Ganesha Operation ---where Im having extra lessons and course) cuma sebentar, gurunya harus jemput istrinya, sementara cuma satu biji itu doang guru yang stand by. Ya Allah, ampunilah dosanya karena tidak memberikan kami tst lebih lama..... Forgive him please for making trouble by ruining our grade. Couldnt ask for more.......



What else to say? Should we really remembering the earth's layers? I dont give a damn, bro.



Terus ini lagi? Lapisan atmosfer. Suka lucu nih pertanyaan disoal yang muncul, "Which layer does reflect the radio waves?" Hell Thermosphere yeah...............  What for? Just listen to the radio, I wont climb up the sky either.

Sekarang sih inget, lah besok? "Do you ever look at the exam sheets and just wanna cry?" If tomorrow I get stuck and dont know what to do with answer sheet, I will absolutely do the table flip and when teacher asks me, "Are you crazy?" I  will immediately answer, "No mam, I just need some coffee....." And leave the class.


Seperti kata pepatah, "cara terbaik mengerjakan ujian adalah: datang, kerjakan, lupakan."

Akhir kata, UJIAN NASIONAL SUDAH SEMAKIN DEKAT. Lets do table flip!

I SHOULDN'T HAVE DONE THIS

I know this kind of weird and prohibited. Im in the middle of School Final Examination, but Im writing a blog. 

Im 18 and almost 19 this year, now a girl trying to survive from the roughest situation in the whole of her lifetime. Its me, call me Karin. But actually, I used to be called by uncountable silly nick names. Wanna know what are they? Let me remind....... Cacing ----its my personal favorite, Jenong ---runner up of personal favorite, Lohan ---actually its based from a fish name which has a thick lips and wide forehead, actually its pretty hard reminding all of them. Ok now I remember one, Dude ---iDung geDE means big nose not refers to "dude" in English to call someone. Ah, its a long time ago. Ive never heard that names again, which actually makes me missing them so much. RIP silly nick names.

Ok, as a quote says, "you know me not my story, you know my smile not my scar, you know my shoes not what path Ive traveled." Ya kira kira gitu deh. Gue suka sebel banget tuh sama orang suka se-enak jidad masang quotes di bio twitter nya. Apalagi quotes itu. Apart from the their own right and the good meaning of the quotes, they seem even dont want to be judged. Anyway, no one wants to be judged. Including me, or you maybe? But the facts are: They judge and quip anyone else on their tweets. Thats not fair, dood. Ok, ini ngaco. Tapi ini asli dari hati gue. 

By that quote means, I want to share you about me ---my story. So judge me as fuck as you like ---mind the f word. 

I am rised by a great mother, the most lovable mom, but sometimes become the most irritating mom. Sorry ma, tapi emang mama suka nyebelin. Ya ngerti lah ya semua remaja pemilik jiwa rebel, pasti setuju sama ini. Tapi tetap cinta mama. MAMA<3
You probably wonder wheres my father? Let me tell you, "only God knows where the fuck he is."

But finally in 2011 my mom got married with a half Australian man. He is Daviddjon Arief. I've never seen my mom smiling as bright as that time, after marrying him. Thank you, Mr Dave for bringing that smile. I call him daddyo. Hes the cutest dad ever. His smile, the way he takes care about three of us, oh yeah I forgot to tell you that my annoying sister exists. And also a step brother from daddyo and his previous wife. His name is Cameron. Aduh, Cam gue lupa tulisan nama lo yang bener, cek facebook bentar yo....... Yah man, mengecewakan sodara sodara. Ternyata facebook name nya cuma Cam Arief. Hello cam, by this post Im asking your permission to put your name in it. Ok? Yaudah deh, I take it as "yes" aja ya. Masa iya ucluk ucluk gue message lo di fb nanya, "hey bro, is it possible for me to put your name on my blogger post?" Beside I dont say anything bad about, yeah? Proud of calling you my brother. Even though I havent met you face to face til now. You ok there, bro? SEENGGAKNYA CITA CITA LUHUR GUE DARI KECIL KESAMPEAN (baca: punya abang) HEHEHE.

Mau liat foto keluarga gue? Nah, in this first post of my blog I want to show off! Im proud to have this such a lovable family. But, you know, theres no Cam here. Only four of us: Mehh, Ma sista, Ma mama, and ma daddyo.

Arent we so that cute? No. Sometime we fight, act silly, laugh ridiculously, joke stupidly. Especially me and daddyo we are the most embarrassing creatures of the whole family members. We can laugh hard. In fact he can laugh and it sounds like a pig and I have the most annoying laughing voice ----according to my friends. Its always my mom and my sister have the joke or ridiculous story or habbit then daddyo and me? We swallow them without chewing it. Yaudah, mereka konyol kita ketawa. Suka bego emang hahaha. Terus sekarang gue abis ngupil nih, terus itu upil jatoh ke kasur, gue pungut, buang deh ya kemana aja, terus ngetik lagi deh ----ma, maaf laptop nya jadi jorok gini. Everyone has a bad habbit. Eh ada foto Cam nih, wanna see it? I insist. Here it is.......

Cam is in the right one, yellow-shirted. He has a big body cause he is a body builder and a musician ---so far I know. NAH, see my daddyo has a cutest smile!

Thats my family. How about yours?